I became a Christian in my early teens without any opportunity to really grow. I went to a youth group event at a church I didn't attend or know anyone and met Jesus in a barn, sitting on a hay bale. Soon after, I realized I had a horrible allergy to hay as my eyes puffed up and my throat began to constrict. I looked like I had a hugely emotional experience all coughing and red and swollen... but in reality I was introduced to my Savior with awe, surprise and wonder, and severe allergies.
|I'll just let you soak in all the 80's awesomeness|
that this picture is...
For years after, I floundered. I tried to secretly read a dusty twenty pound sit-on-the-shelf family record Bible, but was lost and confused and more than a little overwhelmed. Eventually I got my hands on a little devotional book called "If God Loves Me, Why Can't I Get My Locker Open?" (Isn't that a GREAT title?) I remember devouring that book and leaving it on the school bus that I rode for an hour each way to and from high school--first one on, last one off. My home life was miserable and the book was the first introduction into following Jesus.
When I went off to college I eventually got a job at a great Christian office and started attending a solid Bible church. My faith grew as I took classes in basic Christianity and sat under good teaching... but still I was frustrated with not being able to dig out understanding from the Bible myself.
| I met DC Talk when they were still DC Talk. |
I can't even tell you how much I was pitting out in these pictures...
because Michael and Toby!
Years passed and my frustration grew. I sat in on some awesome Bible studies, read some amazing books, but I still struggled with the same sins and I still had a hard time reading the Bible--just the Bible-- without guidance. It was like there was a big, secret key that locked up this knowledge and everyone had it but me. I'd be in Bible study with other women who were pulling some amazingly deep stuff out of their time in the Word and I'd sit quietly in a chair across the table trying to hide my empty fill-in-the-blanks that I didn't get to that week.
I'm so excited over God's word! I love reading His word and drawing out truths. I still love Bible studies, church sermons and reading greater minds than mine, but the great thing is it can still be just me, a pen, my Bible and a notebook. Any time, anywhere, anything. In the next post, I'm going to take you through some simple steps I took to dive in deep and dig out life changing truths.
Now it's your turn:
Do you guys have problems with Bible study? If you have struggled, or still do, let me know in the comments. I hope I'm not the only one who has felt this way. What are your struggles? What do you want in a Bible study or time in God's word? Let me know below and let's talk.