In an ideal world, I would be awesome at my goals. I would plan the week in my Bullet Journal, review the previous week, record progress toward my goals, and start the week with laser focus.
But in reality, when Sunday rolls around, I glance at my bullet journal and calendar, guilt trip myself for a bit, then surf online, take a nap, or procrasti-clean something.
But this week was a good week, and I actually did some planning, bullet journaling and reviewing... and then got sad and frustrated because I continue to live life on default mode. Why do I put off things that will bring me closer to completing goals that are important to me? Why is it so easy to default back to bad habits and apathy?
I don't want to be that person. I don't want to get to the end of my life and regret what could have been. My heart wants to live fully and enjoy life, but my body just wants to go back to bed. Is it because I'm older, or lazy, or not adventurous enough? Everything just seems like so much work at the time, you know? Then another day passes and I'm frustrated again.
So I made a list. A list of all the things I used to do and wanted to finish but have stopped doing. And I'm putting together a plan.
Things I've stopped doing:
1. Writing in my One Line A Day journal
Why it's important to me: I mean, how simple can it be? One line (or 2 or 3) each day and I'm done. I don't have a very good memory (unless something is traumatic, scary, or really emotional), and I want to keep a simple record of the last few years with the boys at home. I knew a big journal page would stress me out, but one line a day would be totally do-able... but I just can't get it together.
Why I stopped: Just didn't make it a priority. Placed it by my bed and didn't remember to write in it. I'm moving it on my desk that I use in the morning and will see if that helps as part of my morning routine and review of the previous day.
2. Transcribing Proverbs for the boys
I finished transcribing the book of Proverbs for my oldest, and am up to chapter 12 for my middle son. I write the verses on the right side page of the composition notebook and my thoughts to my son on the left page. It's important to me to finish one for each of the boys, because it stinks that the first child gets all the good baby books, clothes, and pictures! I need to finish this.
Why I stopped: Lazy. It takes a good portion of time and it's not exactly thrilling and exciting the second time around. But I really REALLY want to finish it! Need to be sure to work this into my Before 12 (late morning) routine.
Ugh. I have a love/hate relationship with FLYlady. I LOVE how my house feels and runs when I'm faithful to work the zones (even if it's not as detailed as she suggests) but I hate taking that 15 min a day doing it. And it's only 15 minutes. It's not a huge sacrifice!
Why I stopped: Distracted. Unfocused. And my house is pretty clean for the most part. It's not an urgent thing to do because we live well enough without those 15 minutes of deep, deliberate cleaning. But then things get gross: the bathtub gets nasty, splashes and spills get cooked into the stovetop, the living room furniture grows sweaters of cat hair, and then I have to take an hour or more to make up for all the stuff I didn't do. I just need to get back to it!
Those are the top three things that I have stopped doing and am frustrated over. There are plenty more and I'm making a list to think through and figure out if it is really important to me and if I need to work it back into my day. What about you? Think through what you've stopped doing and why, and if you are going to work it back in and let me know! I'd love to have a conversation in the comments or on Facebook!