Today is day two.
************BEFORE********************

Last time I made it around the high school track ALMOST seven times. Today, my goal is to make it around the full 7 laps (DO NOT do the math on how excruciatingly slow that is).
Right now, before I change into my running shoes, my mind is FREAKING out again. I don't want to do it, it is SO hard, I have to run a bit faster, I can't make it, this week STINKS, WHY am I doing this, etc etc etc.
So, I'm headed to change then to the track.
My stomach is getting a few knots.
But I WILL see this through.
**************DURING*****************
I started running a bit faster than normal and had a mild panic when I was really sucking air 1/4 way around the track. I slowed it down (so now I'm at a slow mo jog) and found a sort of rhythm.
My goal this time was to make it around the track at least 7 times, since last time I was about 50 yards short of 7 complete laps. So I played a game with myself and said I'd run a little faster along the bleachers and then slow down for the rest of the loop, and it helped!
I finished the 25 min with 7 laps plus a bit. It was hard though... and it is just a mind game at this point.
My mind is screaming STOP! YOU CAN'T DO THIS! and I kept doing assessments... my legs don't hurt, my chest doesn't hurt, I don't have any stitches in my sides... it's just HARD. That's it. Just HARD. I have NO REASON to quit. There is NOTHING wrong with HARD.
Mid way through lap 5 I did slow it down to a walk for about 20 seconds, but then picked it back up to a slow jog through to the end.
*******************************AFTER******************
Right now I'm too tired to be really excited. But I am glad to know that I CAN run for almost 2 miles now. True it's painfully slow, but like Laura on the podcast said, running isn't so much about speed as it is stamina and endurance. And another site I was looking at said you should give yourself six months of running practice before you really start to try to pick up speed. Since this is only 7 weeks into it, I have time. :o)
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